August was another busy month for me – surprise! surprise! 🤷♀️ I have not been journaling or habit tracking, which I think contributed towards my $hit mood. Normally, I wouldn’t even bother writing a blog post but I promised myself that I would post at least 1-2 blog posts per month and my calendar indicates that I haven’t posted anything for the month of August. I don’t know if you checked your calendar lately, but it is almost the end of August. The older I get, the faster time seems to disappear. As some of you may know, I turned the big 30 on August 4, 2021 and I am not gonna lie – I am not thrilled about being on the other side of 13 going on 30.
I spent my 30th birthday at my parents’ house and brought the husband, Rebecca, and Baby Aaron with me. My mom surprised me with a beautiful cake from a charming bakery called Bellissima. It turns out that you can have your cake and eat it too. We had the lemon buttercream cake which exceeded everyone’s expectations. This cake is hands-down, the best buttercream cake that I have ever tasted, and the macarons were heavenly! I highly recommend checking out this bakery the next time you are in Waterloo, ON! 🙂
Most people would be eager to brag write about what they did on their birthday and one would think that I am excited to share with you all of the deets. What I am giving you here is a brief synopsis of a couple of highlights, at most. Admittedly, I feel somewhat anhedonic towards a lot of things, and I am not sure what is causing me to feel this way. Currently, my life feels like one big blur, where the days bleed into one another and the nights are far from peaceful. My mind is its own worst enemy so the last thing I want is to be alone with my thoughts. It’s counter-intuitive really, because the best way to handle depression and/or anhedonia is to spend time along with your thoughts, basking in your stillness, and simply “being.”
A Trip Down Memory Lane
When I spent the weekend at my parents’ house, I was able to address an aching pain that’s been burning in my heart for the past decade 💔 Sadly, I learned that I still had no desire to try and patch broken friendships from my teenage years. A part of me was scared and anxious, but truth be told, I would have probably made an effort to reach out to them if I still cared. The idea of “let’s do coffee” seemed too awkward, and deep down, I knew that I wasn’t ready to take a trip down memory lane. I thought I was ready, but instead I chose to take the road of least resistance and binge-watched Season 3 of Desperate Housewives. 🤫
Now that I are back from our mini-vacation, most of my time is spent working, sleeping, doing chores, and taking care of the kiddos. Perhaps I am stuck in a rut or maybe this is the beginning of a #Milleniallifecrisis. In fact, over these past few years, I have slowed my life down by 50% and cut out 50% of the things that I used to do. Most of the time, we are too busy chasing our tails trying to find the next shiny thing rather than slowing the f*** down. So tell me, when was the last time you stopped and smelled the roses? 🌹🥀
▶ Want to know what makes me happy? Sunflowers 🌻🌻
(っ◔◡◔)っ ♥ FINAL THOUGHTS
Flowers really do cheer me up, especially when I’m feeling like $hit. I’m curious to know if flowers cheer you up as well. If you like flowers too, what is your favorite flower? Please leave a comment by joining the conversation below 🠓 I am working this weekend and will try my best to respond to your comments. And if it takes me a while to reply to you, please be patient with me!
“I am doing the best I can with what I have in this moment. And that is all I can expect of anyone, including me.”
–Affirmation of the day
Thanks for stopping by! ❤
Warmest Congratulations on your birthday, Hilary !
The photos are beautiful.
I had a difficult emotional time turning 30, but each decade got easier. Life, as it unfolds in different stages, brings many blessings.
I always have fresh flowers around. Roses are my favourite, right now I have pale pink ones. 🤗🌷
Thank you so much, Sally! 🙂 All photos were taken on my phone. Luckily, my mom’s balcony is quite photogenic which makes snapping pics a bit easier! 🌻 I am indifferent towards my age… I don’t like that I’m aging and that my health isn’t at the baseline that it once was. I’m trying everything I can to prevent my health issues from getting worse, and some days it makes me depressed and frustrated.
Roses are really pretty. I associate them with love and special occasions. Rose bushes are nice but the thorns are prickly🌹Thank you for reading!
Actually, when I turned 30, my husband made reservations at a nice restaurant, but my distress at ‘getting older’ , made me feel not hungry…
Now I am more than twice that age. We are all wise when we are proactive about health issues.
I can tell from your photos that you have many blessings in your life.
And that cake is fabulous ! 🤗
You do not look your age, Sally. You look young! I agree that it’s always good to make health a priority 🙂
I try to practice gratitude every morning. There are many things I wish I had, but at the same time, I shouldn’t take the things I do have for granted.
Thanks, Hilary ! I have carefully avoided too much sun exposure for all these years.
Yes, let us continue to practise gratitude, always. 🌼🤗🌷
I’m the worst for not wearing sunscreen and try to avoid the sun by staying indoors haha 😂
Our skin ages much more gracefully by avoiding too much sun exposure. Thanks, Hilary. 🤗🌷
🌻🌻🌻You’re in town, yay! Glad you could see some family during this time! Sorry you’ve been feeling a bit down.. If I am honest, my mind has been doing overtime somersaults as well!! Can’t seem to get it to settle at night (I drink that same sleepy tea lol)!
Happy belated, hope it was a good one!Your baby is incredibly adorable!!😘😘😘😊😍
I *was* in town end of July/early August but I was only in the K-W area and the GTA. This past month, I haven’t been in a happy place mentally despite being productive. Usually I would have a lot to write about but this blog post was honestly very challenging to write. The words weren’t flowing the way I wanted. Pair that with major writer’s block, brain fog, and headaches. Yuck.
Sleepy tea helps me to an extent but the one I have doesn’t taste very good, so I seldom drink it. Right now I’m on evening rotation so I don’t have to wake up at 4:15am like last week! 😂
I think you did a splendid job, I enjoyed reading it 🙂
Thank you so much! It took me all day to write it. I had to scrap the rough draft at least 10 times and made over 30 revisions before finally publishing it 🙇♀️
Haha that’s what I do every Tuesday before I publish! 🤣😏 Every Tuesday evening I think… “Damn, this is the week (I start panicking) that I miss a Wednesday post…” and somehow it comes together in the end… Give yourself a break and a gentle pat on the back! 🙂 you’re doing great 😘
Fabulous photos! Such beautiful children you have!
Thank you, Ashley! Hope you are having a good week 🙂
I must confess, I have already seen all of the photos. But, I still came to read and support, because I saw it in my email inbox and I thought ‘Yeah, 30 club unite!’
Welcome to your thirties, my dear. You’re going to love it.
Stay safe at work please.
Also, you have very cute kids!
Thank you for reading and for your support V! 🙂 That’s awesome that you subscribed to my blog posts – that really means a lot 😊
Taking things day by day and praying that we don’t get sick. We can only do so much… sanitize, sanitize, sanitize. Repeat. I never really liked emergen-C but started drinking it before going to work 🍊I hope that you’re doing well and that you’re kicking covid-19 to the curb! 😷
I’ve always subscribed and gotten your posts emailed to my inbox. I just… well you know how lazy I am with texting back. It’s like that for responding to blog posts. lol
Very cool! That made my day, thank you! 😇 Take your time responding to texts – there’s no hurry at all.
Welcome to your 30s! It sounds like it was good for you to move on from your high school friendships. Those friendships tend not to be tight anyway
Thank you so much for your well wishes! Sorry it took so long to reply 😓 Yes, in many ways it was good to move on from these [toxic] friendships. In some ways, it still makes me sad that I haven’t kept any connections with these people. Knowing that they are just a click away on social media makes (not that I use social media) me feel like there’s unfinished business. Tbh I don’t feel at peace and don’t like being in my home town because of the painful memories attached to it.
I used to feel that way about old friends too, but I found peace later on. I understand about not being at peace in your home town. Story of my life!
It seems like I’m able to deal with it unless I’m visiting my home town. It’s the memories attached to that place that I wish I didn’t have to be reminded of. Not being on FB helps – I rather not look up what ppl from my past are doing.
I’m all for traveling and living in different countries! 🙂 In a way, it gives a person peace of mind as well as the ability to rewrite their story, or build upon the current one and make it better!
One reason I gave up on Facebook is because of that! Also, I don’t like them reminding you what you posted before. Like, you can’t move on with life when that happens.
That is true about living in other countries, but it does come with a lot of baggage. I have needed a lot of help in rebuilding my life
Right? Like I don’t like Facebook reminding me of my past. I agree that it makes it incredibly difficult to move on when FB wants us to reminisce on these “memorable” moments 😏
Happy Birthday month Hilary! Being 30 it seems a big step in our journey but each age has its beauty 😉
Going back home sometime can be stressful but is also lovely to spend some time with the loved ones 😉 That cake looks absolutely beautiful! 😋
Sunflowers 🌻 are really happy flowers! Is difficult for me to choose one flower, I do like them all and really make me smile 😃
Thank you so much, Ribana! 🙂 Indeed, going home was a stressful experience for sure and I’m happy to be back at “home,” that is, my new home. I really do like having a birthday in August because the weather is nice, fruits are in season, and flowers are abundant! 🌺
Thank you for sharing how you’ve been feeling with total honesty. I hope you find comfort in your thoughts and your mind, no matter what shape its in that day, so you can live as happy as you can. My favorite flower is the pink rose and the blue moonflower :))
I try to be as honest and transparent as possible! Thank you for your thoughtful reply and I’m sorry it took this long to respond. I often forget to check older blog posts and end up missing comments as a result 🤦♀️
Pink roses are lovely 💐 I’m not sure if I’m familiar with blue moon flowers – the name alone sounds pretty. I’m picturing these flowers in Animal Crossing. I know there’s pink roses, but there’s also a variety of other flowers too, including some of the rarer blue flowers.
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It’s been a while since I’ve heard from you. Thank you for stopping by and letting me know that you’re okay! 🙂
P.S. I owe your blog a visit!
The sunflowers are lovely. And belated happy birthday, Hilary! 💜
Agreed, sunflowers are very lovely!🌻 Thank you for the belated birthday wishes, Miel! 😄
A lovely post and nice to hear from you.
Your birthday cakes looks brilliant and I can imagine how excellent this tasted.
I love lavender, but any bright flowers are cheerful. My hayfever says know to flowers indoirs though.
I love your sunflowers, which are another cheerful flower.
I like lavender too – especially the scent. It puts me to sleep lol Have you heard of baked goods infused with lavender? They might be worth trying! 🙂
I have had shortbread lavender before I became dairy free. They were lovely.
Not gonna lie, that cake looks really delicious and tempting, especially with the berries and macarons! Those sunflowers look so lovely, and yes: they’re really great flowers.
It’s so great to hear from you, and I hope you’re doing okay now. Also, belated happy birthday!
My replies are a bit slow because I am working [again] this weekend. Thank you for the belated birthday wishes. I cannot believe that it is the month of September already. Sadly, my sunflower plant died ☹ Another sign that summer is over. We get 2 months of hot weather and 10 months of cold weather here.
Happy birthday
Thank you! 🙂
Happy belated birthday. That cake does look fabulous. And I am not even a cake person.
Thank you, Melissa 🙂 It’s hard to believe that it’s already the end of August. This month flew right by!
The cake was as tasty as it was pretty. I have yet to find a bakery out west that makes cakes like these. In the meantime, there’s homemade cakes and #Costco cake 🍰
Happy belated birthday! The cake looks delicious and your son and daughter are adorable. I hope you have a good September 😊
Thank you, Pooja! My replies are a bit slow because I am working [again] this weekend. My daughter will be starting kindergarten in September – it’s crazy! 😆 I cannot believe that it’s the month of September already. I hope that you have a good September as well!!
Oh wow good luck to her and hope work goes well for you! I know it’s crazy how fast time flies. Thanks!
Happy belated birthday! I turned 29 last week and I’m already freaking out about turning 30 so definitely understand where you’re coming from! That cake looks AMAZING!
Thank you, Jenny! Btw You’ll have to show me Neverland sometime – sounds like a great place. The thought of not having to grow up sounds nice 😇 I don’t think that turning a year older every year gets any easier tbh.
happy belated birthday!!!!
Thank you @buddy71 🙂
You are most welcome and I hope things are going well for you and your family.
It’s my daughter’s birthday end of October and she will be 5! So we have that too look forward to 🥳 There’s also Halloween 🎃 I will do my best to take her trick-or-treating but it’s still tentative. The pandemic is quite bad here and we’re in a 4th wave right now.
Stay safe.
Thanks friend!
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