Now She Knows

Background: This is a poem I wrote a couple of weeks ago but didn’t get around to posting until now. It is based on a true story involving my mom, who doesn’t quite understand it—but at least now she knows.

Writing this was an uplifting experience; it allowed me to express emotions that had been bubbling beneath the surface for far too long. Letting these words out feels like a massive weight lifted. It’s a relief to finally be seen, and even though my mom is still catching up, the air between us feels clearer. I’m just excited to see how our relationship evolves now that I’m standing in my own truth. 🙌

If this poem feels like a beautiful mystery, that’s because it is. 🌸 I’m not ready to fully dive into the specifics of my lifestyle shift and the incredible clarity it’s brought me, but I wanted to leave a few Easter eggs for those who resonate with the vibe. Consider this a small glimpse into a much bigger story. *wink* 🍄🌱

P.S. You can read all of my other poems and parodies here. Some still need to be rewritten and re-uploaded. I hope that you enjoy my poetry as much as I enjoyed writing it! (◡‿◡✿)

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16 thoughts on “Now She Knows

  1. P. J. Gudka says:
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    I’m so glad you’re communicating better with your mum and having a closer relationship. I’ve noticed that my relationship with my parents has really improved as I got older too mostly because I’m communicating more too. Loved the poem and hope you and your mum continue to have a better relationship.

    • Hilary Tan says:
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      Distance makes the heart grow fonder. I couldn’t live under the same roof as my parents and my main goal was to move out. I moved out when I was 23. I wish I got along with my parents and envy kids who do. Every relationship is unique in its own way. Different family members…..very different personalities.

      Even though my mom and I have our differences, we can talk on the phone for hours. I talk to her one the phone 2-3 times/week. My parents don’t know how to use video chat and are technologically challenged. 🤷‍♀️

    • Hilary Tan says:
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      Because this topic is taboo in the west and unconventional (sadly) I’m not sure how some of my readers would take it if I flat out said what the poem was alluding to. I do plan on disclosing more about what I do because I can’t stop talking about it and I find it so fascinating. It’s right up there with spiritual growth, philosophy, consciousness & enlightenment. ✨💫

      I finally told my mom about it because she often asks what I do for self-guided therapy. She’s one of the most closed-minded people I know, so our conversation was….um… interesting.

    • Hilary Tan says:
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      I’m not sure if my mom knows that I even wrote this poem, unless she’s been reading my blog. Apparently, she knows about this blog.

      I was inspired to write this poem after a phone call that I recently had with my mom. We live in different provinces so I see her 1-2 times/year.

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